I don't care about anything. I'm supposed to write two long papers this week one by Wednesday and one by Friday. I just can't get myself to write them. One I have kind of outlined, but it is the really long one. I just don't have the mental or physical energy. I wrote the introduction but I can't seem to get anything else done. Usually even if I don't want to I can get myself to sit down and write because it is due. But I don't want these to end up going down to the wire because then I have other work for tests next week. I feel like a failure. I can't even keep myself together. I've been having urges to SI and I feel like I'm draining all my energy to not do it. I feel like I was right for wanting to become a hermit. Then I wouldn't have to have the energy to write papers. All I want to do is sleep, all the time. I work so hard to get here and now I just crash.