Hi Lilly,

What your feeling is par for the course. I felt that way for two to three years till I was able to stop. I was angry because no one had the answeres , I thought I was the only one suffering . but what it was is that I could not get it . There was a part of me that did not want it bad enough.
ask and pray for willingness .

the work I did involved changing these thought patterns. is like a war zone .
Constant walking the line saying well am I going to do the starvation or binging or am I gonna try to eat healthy .

the ed voice on one shoulder the new healthy one on the other .
which one are you going to give into ?

The truth is you are alone with this . You have to make the decisions to right your eating. Im over here working on mine . I alone deside if Im going to do whats best to recover or not.Im comletelt responsible for what I do. with eating . The therapist does not have the problem and they probably are clueless about what its like first hand .

It does not mean she or he cannot help you.

I did lots of work . I called and then I didn;t call. the final call was to my own phone I had to learn how to dial my own number and talk to myself .because many times others were not home.

the therpists help reiterate ? new ways of thinking and supporting right action . How we sabotage ourselves.

Another alternative is to go into a rehab type fo situation. as in patient .

Take care

Patricia