While I don't have an ED, I have "ED behaviors." I purge when I eat too much, starve myself when I need to. I also cut myself. I've been cutting for almost five years, purging for a year, and restricting calories for about six months. But lately...it's getting worse. I don't eat that much in a day and I exercise (sometimes I throw it up). I'm so ****ing hungry right now but I cannot go into that kitchen. I don't think I've lost weight but my pants are looser. I'm still fat though. My therapist says that I'm not fat, that I'm actually pretty skinny...same with everybody else....but I don't see it. When I look in the mirror, all I see is fat covering my body. I want to get rid of it. So my question is: how come I'm not losing weight?