I know exactly how you feel, Abby. It takes so much out of you as you try to continue living. You've described the greyness and that doesn't help either. I expect too, that you just can't look at the future. Chronic conditions are so draining. I know!

Just take it one day at a time. Don't look back. Look forward, even if it's just a day only. Find something to involve yourself in that doesn't take much effort but will help you out with the day. Another idea is to put some colour in your place, maybe some bright flowers.

Hugs to you and here, have some energy pills Wishful thinking that such things existed!