I know there's no other way than to keep fighting... The reason why i wrote was because I wanted to share what i was feeling... I feel like this a lot these days... It seems as though I have lost hope that things will get better for me...You know when i was younger i thought i will stick it out and things will get better.... Now i am in my twenties and i have been fighting loneliness and isolation for so long, it seems like my weapons are getting dry with the effort...I have options to smother the pain... a handful of activities that make me cope like some heart warming tracks and some good comedies and other t.v shows which i keep close to my heart...My mind is open and keeps reminding me i have to carry on...So I think about going for a run in the evenings and lifting weights... I am even thinking of joining a club or a gym once i have made some money (I havent got a job and i cant see a therapist or have any meds cos of shortage of funds and the fact that the society I live in considers Depression as an excuse)...However, despite these heartening signs the sad feeling resides inside me all the time... It gets smothered once i am busy but being busy itself is not the cure as i have found... The answer lies in social contact, the warmth and the feeling of being understood by someone whose physically there for me...That doesnt mean i dont cherish the fact that i have found you guys... i appreciate that thoroughly but still the thing that i miss is what always stays inside me...