well, here it is lunchtime, and i'm actually feeling quite a bit better. i have absolutely no idea why, but..... i guess beggars can't be choosers, right?
part of it, i think, is that i'm @ work & haven't had the opportunity to dwell on it. so that's a clue on dealing with it in the future. i don't know if it will come flooding back later when i do have time to think about it.
i didn't end up calling anybody, but i do thank you all very much for your kind thoughts and ideas. i probably should have called somebody yesterday but i didn't want to because i didn't want to land in the hospital again (2x in a month!).
thanks again