jerrymichele: how are you dealing with your bf then? How long have you been together? I will try one more time to tell him how I feel. However I know he knows how. I also think he wants to marry me but something is stopping him when it comes to book the date. I started thinking that maybe his kids told him they wont see him anymore if we got married or his ex threatened him or god knows what (or is it just my paranoia...). He used to drink more than the recommended level and now stopped drinking, which I am so pleased about and somewhere hope that he would be able to 'connect' with his own processes more... So yes - the only thing I can do at this stage is probably talk about how I feel.