After a year and a half of procrastinating, I'm finally taking the GED(general education deploma) today. I was homeschooled all of my life, so even though I finished high school, I never got a stated credited diploma. So, now I have to go take this stupid test before they will give me one. But, I hate tests. They make me so nervous! I'm always afraid I'm going to fail. And if I step away from that long enough to start focusing on the actual test, I get distracted by thoughts that everyone else in the room is staring at me and judging me. Which is ridiculous, I know, since they are all focusing on the TEST, not me. And even though 90% of the people taking the test are going to be at least 10 years older than me, it doesn't matter. I still will feel stupid, I still will be nauscious, and I STILL will shake so bad my answers will look likde they belong to a 6 year old..

I'm not really sure why I just went on a rant about that. I guess I just felt the need to vent. especially to people who will most likely understand what I'm saying. I wish so much people could understand what I'm saying sometimes... People seem to only listen to the parts they want to hear. it's so easy for them to say there is nothing to worry about or that I should be fine now. It's not that simple. Yes, the meds are working, yes I feel much better, but NO, it's not fine! I'm not fine! I wish everyone would stop pretending I'm fine...

Sorry, another sporatic rant. Ignore that. Anyway... I was wondering... How do some of you deal with severe test anxiety and social phobias when it comes to testing?