I went to my appt today with my T and I don't know what happened to me but I couldn't hardly speak the entire session. She mainly talked and went over some handouts she had given me, and that was pretty much it. I wanted to speak but I couldn't and felt so miserable because I couldn't express what I was feeling. I was disappointed that she didn't get out the paper and pen for me to write down what I was feeling, but then again it's probably my fault because I didn't say anything and she probably didn't know I needed to. I scheduled an appt in two weeks, but after I got home I called and canceled. I just don't know if I can do this anymore. This is a really really bad time of year for me and I feel like I'm falling apart and need to have a session where I can just cry it all out. I don't know what to do anymore. Part of me wants a break from therapy because I think if I ignore everything and don't talk about it, it will all just go away. But the rational part of me knows that won't happen. I feel like I'm stuck and I can't get out. I wish I could talk to my T about this but I don't know how.