ok, i took all your advice & called the crisis line. the gentleman i spoke with wasn't really of too much help, although he did mention i could take myself (or have someone take me) to the hospital with the psych unit's emergency room to be evaluated if i wanted to.
i didn't realize that. i thought your pdoc had to send you (that's how i've always ended up there before except for 2 attempts). i doubt i would go, though, because i would be so embarrassed if they sent me home as not being critical enough. but it's an option.
thanks for all your help again
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