Thanks guys for the encouraging words. I know I can come here for support I've just never used a site like this during such a time. My friend is my best friend and she knows everything about me except this...I am going to proceed with caution because even though I know deep down she will be supportive I don't know how she will handle something like this. I don't know if I want to put something like that on her...maybe I will talk it over with my therapist first...it would be a good idea if she could come to therapy with me but we don't live in the same town so that wouldn't be possible...a part of me says to myself I'm going to quit so why even tell her, but what happens when the next time comes and I am tempted again?...well anyways thanks for the advice I don't know what I'm going to do yet so keep me in your thoughts if you will...