I'm feeling very, very nervous about returning to class this month. I'll be a sophmore at my university and I'm upset at how much weight I've gained over the summer. Last year, I was at 130 lbs, but since then I've balloned up to 190 lbs. I feel so ashamed about this, disgusted that I haven't had better control over my diet. I'd like to lose the weight off, but only have 20 days until I'm back in class, and I know that's not enough time to lose everything I've gained. I feel so humiliated, because I see all of my nice 'thin' clothes hanging up in my closet gathering dust while I'm banished to the world of big t-shirts and loose jeans--clothes that I wouldn't even looked at when I was slimmer. You see, my whole family is overweight. and I used to be really proud that I managed to control my waistline, but now I've lost so much of my confidence. And it's hard to stop overeating when the rest of my household keeps unhealthy foods around for themselves--I get tempted. So, I don't know what to do. I feel that I used to be so healthy and attractive, and now I'm just grotesque. I feel so, so bad.

Thanks for letting me express my feelings. If anyone has any diet suggestions or support to share, I would really appreciate it.

Hugs,

Alexiel