Dear SilentandScared ~ You voiced the very idea that I had earlier today - that I was being punished for something. I am not sure who the "he" is that you refer to, but it doesn't sound like he is a good influence on your life. Are you able to work? Are you on disability? If "he" is not contributing, maybe "he" could go elsewhere? Do you have the inclination tlo suggest this? You ARE not being punished! Remember - Bad things happen to good people - perhaps more so, because good people are often not inclined to aggressively discard what is in the way and go after what they need. Bless You, Silent ~ be silent no more, if this would help your situation. I care deeply for you after following your posts and getting to know you. You are a good person, with no reason to be punished!~! billieJ