Hello, jacq10. I too have spoken the words you have spoken here. After years and years of pills and platitudes, I was left exhausted without any medication that was particularly helpful, nor a voice to guide me.

Even so, the terrible frustration had not entirely extinguished the hope. That bit of hope and a stubborn determination kept me going, even if at times on my knees. There is no magic. Just hard work.

I now function at a higher level. Ups and downs, at least for me, are inevitable. The battle to maintain is constant, but I am thankful I continued the fight.

Good luck!