I totally understand your need to cut. Sometimes the rage I feel gets so horrific, the only way I know to make it go away is to cut. Thankfully, I don't get into a rage that bad but once in a blue moon. I think the trick to not cutting is to stop the anger/rage before it gets to the point for the need to cut. If i feel myself headed that way, it is a matter of distraction. It doesn't always work, but it is worth a try .