Lost my thread

so here it is another version,

-gossiped about

-labeled

-dissmised
.

by people who do not know me in real life, but through the busy work of a gossiper I have become what they hate the most.

In my need to unload my pain. this past year, I have become just like them..

A few days ago when I tried to stand up for myself my friend labeled me as combative . a word he never used befor and a word one of his female team used in a recent discussion about how her father was , who was dying from cancer .he was combative.

proof my post that was yanked was passed around as he said others did not undertand it . proof once again I was being disscused by the "team"

I want out from under people who tell me I should Post like they do .

that certain people "should" not be where they are. they don't belong. talked down to .


During all of this My friends dad died suddenly. and he did not tel me until I emailed today.

So I said I would call.

his not leting me know made my posts look like I cared only about myself which is just how they see me .

I cannot win . and I should not have to .

tonight when I call.and from now on .

I want to keep our corespondance brief and only focused on him .
he never cuts the conversation off when its all about him.

I will no longer be sharing about my life.

and I'm sharing this in wrting because i don't want to share my anger or hurt about this group any more .with him.

I want a divorce . a clean one .
I want to get them out of my hair.and I belive that means a complete debulking and six rounds of chemo and some major radiation.

I think about 35 of the rad . internal AND external beam .
and then another six rounds to make sure ALL microscopic memories are eraddicated.

and after that about five years of "comoffofthem" ( tamoxifin)

Patricia