Okay, as if having ADHD is not enough, a few years ago I had chemotherapy and so now I'm dealing with chemo brain. It's a double whammy to my brain. It's like my ADHD has quadrupled.

I forget what I'm saying in the middle of sentences and cannot for the life of me remember it again. I forget thoughts in mid-thought and they're gone forever. I prefer to communicate in writing because I can take my time to get the ideas out. I think I must sound like an idiot when I talk because I'm always tripping over my words and forgetting what I'm saying.

I am constantly losing things (and have a bad habit of blaming other people). I'll put something down and five seconds later (literally!) I can't find it. This happens dozens of times a day.

My ability to read has taken a nosedive. Sometimes I can't concentrate to finish a single sentence. If someone gives me a news article to read, I usually ask them to just give me the gist of it because I get overwhelmed when I see a big pile of paragraphs.

I constantly make people repeat things to me because I drift off after they say the first few words. I don't remember anything friends have told me, and I tend to tell the same stories over and over because I forget that I already told them. And I'm always interrupting people because (1) I haven't been listening and (2) wait, I just forgot what #2 was. @#$%&!

Oh, okay. #2 is that I know if I don't blurt out my thought, I'll lose it forever. (I swear I really did just forget #2 as I was typing it!)

It's like ADHD gone wild!

I have read posts by people with ADHD and posts by people who are dealing with chemo brain, but I have never read anything written by someone who is dealing with both of them at the same time.

I am afraid that people think I am using ADHD and chemo brain as an excuse to be rude and self-centered, but that is so far from the truth. I hate being like this!

What I'd give to be able to sit down and spend an hour or two reading a good novel. I'm at the point where I record TV shows so I can watch them in little installments. Whenever I try to watch a movie with my boyfriend, I wind up falling asleep after about 15 minutes, even though I'm not tired at all.

Oh, and I also have high blood pressure, so I'm afraid to take my Adderall (which does help a little bit).

Can anyone relate to this?