Thanks Wpowers for sharing your story. I know the books and the movies but I just want to hear from real people their stories. I am wondering if I am DID and I even emailed my T about this last night. I am scared to really know though, I just recently learned that I dissociate sometimes more than normal and I am 40, so you would think I should have known.

It must have been scary not knowing what you were doing at certain times and not know why. It sounds like you have an awesome T who knows how to treat you with respect, love and honor. I hear so many T's don't know what to do and end up harming the client more than helping them.

I find smells to be very triggering to me, it seems like it is a direct hit to the brain of some horrible memory. It is like when you are so little, you might not have the words to communicate what is going on, but your senses never forgot.
So I sense that you always knew, but you never had anyone put a label on it because you had no reason to feel anyone else thought differently as you and you lived with it for a long time without knowing it was "something". Am I following that right?

I guess what I am thinking is it possible not to know you have "others", (sorry I am not sure what is appropriate to call them.) and still have DID? Can one "other" be in such a dissociated state, that you simply just don't know they exist? I have lots of questions, most scare me a lot, but for some reason I feel I must ask.