I know what you mean. Even when you have friends it's even harder. Somemtimes you can't talk about it with friends because some of them don't understand it, but they continue to ask "what's wrong?"
Have you ever felt like you can feel your heart being sat on by a 400lb man? And you still try to smile....It's hard. I know. We need more than strength because strength can be a weakness but I still don't know what to do sometimes. (sorry for the essay... just had a lot to write I guess) hahaha. Feel free to add me as a buddie or private message me. I will listen and try to help the best way I can.