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Originally Posted by mlpHolmes
Yes Sheila it's like Kati said, you may not intend to cut deeply but ut oh.... *everything* you said I relate to. I started in my teens & I am a lot older Cutting is still a struggle. Looking back if I would have stopped cold turkey, IDK I've been hospitalized for months, you see this may turn into an addiction. You don't want that. You have a life to enjoy!!! When a family member sees a scar (which I keep covered all summer) & that *will* happen to you too, the pain I see in them that I caused, rips my heart apart.
You do not mention a Therapist. I strongly suggest you find one Sheila. They will help you w/ your anger & you can talk about how to *safely* release the anger. The cutting takes is away for the moment. It *always* comes back bc you haven't worked your issues through/out. There also is new, excellent medication that will aid you as you work in therapy. Plz listen Sheila. PM me any time ok.
*Always* here 4 U,
Holmes
P.S. My List for not cutting is over 1,000, just doesn't do it. You have to work this out. YOU are what's Worth IT!
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Thank you for the thought out response! I do have a counselor whom I see once a week, and I am on anti-depressants (20 mgs of citalopram/ day.) My counselor and I do talk about it a bit... but I have so many different issues that we don't really work on the anger that I feel toward myself too often. We did last week (after I slipped up and cut again.) but still... it's only an hour a week. :/ I guess it helps some... but sometimes I just feel like there is no "getting over" these issues. I mean... what does that even look like? In order for me to live a "healthy" life, I basically have to change everything I've been doing since I was 6. That seems like a pretty tall order... you know? But, do give it a try anyway. And I do want to be happy and all that. I guess I just have a lot of different problems to work through, so of course it will take some time. Anyway, thanks for the response!
