@ crew in answer to your wondering how anyone can be happy about the DID dx:

I'm happy because I have a name for what I'm experiencing. I don't like that I'm not sleeping when I think I am. I don't like that I don't know if I remembered to go to work or not. I don't like that my biggest battle is myself. I don't like that there's not a miracle pill or a mixture of meds that would make me like everyone else. I'm happy because I there's wonderful people like yourself here on PC who have already been down this road. I'm not alone. Had I not found PC and later learned I have DID it would be a million times harder for me to accept since my only experience outside of PC with DID was so negative, it would be a hard pill to swallow. PC has given me so much guidance and tools many of them from the chats that you host. Thank you. You make me feel like I can do this and I will succeed even when I think I'm failing. <3