Time.

I'm thinking that I might be a little too philosophical for this one but do you guys ever really think about time and parts of your life. I find my self lying in my bed listening to a song from May of 2004. My 8thgrade graduation. A great time in my life where things where going soo well for me. I was graduating and all my friends where soo happy... 5 years later and I lay here wondering what happend to that time. Almost in teers, I start listening to a song that make me think about those memories in my life I wish I could go back to. I feel sad that some times there is unfinished business that I never was able to fix, or I messed somehting up and that I will never see that time in my life again. I mean the thought usually gives me panic attacks.

When I see the movie Titanic, like everyone else, I star crying. Yes, I am a guy,but don't forget that depression gets the worst in all of us. whilke watching the movie, I dont start balling at the part where jack sinks to his never ending peacefull slumber into the ice cold abyss below him, I start to cry when the older version of Rose dreams and walks again on the ship where she sees every one in the form that they were in back in 1912. I realize that the reason why I cry at this particular moment in the long movie is ecasue I feel that I will never see a time in my life that I really like again. Its sort of like the moment dies and you never see it again.

I know that this probably depressed everyone out of thier mind but I was just wonder inf if stuff like this every happens to you. Do you sit and wonder where life has gon? Do you listen to a song and wish you could relive that time of your life over and over again? Am I going through a waaay early quarter life crisis or am I just too much of a thinker?

Anyways, when I type I type. I hope I didn't bpre you with my thought but I was just wondering if this is common for people with depression to think about.

Thanks' for reading.

Roman.