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Dec 08, 2009, 05:05 AM
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Member Since: Apr 2009
Location: London, UK
Posts: 30
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I think the poster above is perfectly right. You need to start creating new memories, starting today.
However.
That's easier said than done. It's my second year since I've been diagnosed with depression and over-thinking is one of my regular activities. It's going so far that I sometimes fail to fall asleep for 4 or 5 hours after I've gone to bed, just because I think about...well, just about everything except for world peace. My therapist says it's a defense mechanism, because I'm thinking about random stuff rather than actually trying to fix things in my life. It'll start with stuff I have to do tomorrow, for example, and it'll go to stuff I didn't do yesterday, then last year, then I think about the wrong decisions I've made throughout my life, from there I switch to blaming my parents for those decisions and I'll end up wanting life to be over because clearly it's too much. In my head, anyway. Sometimes I wonder how come my brain is still up there, normally I would've thought it exploded by now.
I usually don't need songs or anything to trigger my thinking about the past. I always think about what I could've done and I know it's wrong. We should all be thinking about what we can do now to change something in our lives that's obviously not working, but realizing it takes a lot of time. I should know, because I've taken my freaking time. And still, even after I realized, I'm still taking my time. Why? I think it's because I'm scared of taking more wrong decisions, so I just "think" about them.
It's not too philosophical. But you have to stop thinking and start doing, because time goes by fast, not slow. One minute, you're at your 8th grade graduation and the next...you're thinking about what in the world happened in the last 5 years. It's normal to feel sad about things you didn't do or finish, but regrets keep you behind. And life is too short for that.
Good luck. 
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