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turquoisesea · Dec 08, 2009, 11:08 AM

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Originally Posted by Berries

Thank you for asking Turquoisesea. Hugs to you. I know you are struggling too.
I am feeling about the same. I am not crying though. So that is better. It’s just so depressing and overwhelming to have such huge stumbling blocks between me and a happy, well rounded, and fulfilled life.
I realize that the stumbling blocks are my own personal demons. But somehow that makes it worse than if they were outside sources. Does that make sense to anyone?

I think I understand. It's easier to have another person or outside source as the "enemy" keeping things from going right, but when the cause is inside but not something that's easy to change it becomes very difficult to deal with.

I personally think all the time "Why can't I just walk out that door, go to the park/mall/wherever, maybe bring some friends, and have fun?" "Why can't I answer that phone call?" "Why can't I practice". And there I am sitting in bed.. stuck... I know I WANT to do these things but IT is stopping me. I know you have the same problems, I know you have other problems I don't have too. I can only imagine having a phobia. These things get in the way of our lives.

I still do have hope that all of us can have good lives, that we can get better. Maybe not the perfect life we envision but a happy one. I think we need to hold onto that hope, and reach out to the people who can help make our vision possible. It's not fair, and it's not easy, but that's what we are given and we have to make the best of it.

*hugs*