((((((((((Katileena)))))))))It's hard work being depressed, and that's not sarcastically meant. I hope that your counselor has good advice for you; if you are still unsure of how to get help you can afford, post back here. There are a lot of people who are very knowledgeable about that sort of thing. As I am not, I can only offer my sincere wishes for peace for you and a chance to reconnect with your emotions, somewhere safe and encouraging. Take care, now. Huggs.