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Originally Posted by moonrise
because it's forcing me to admit I'm s/i again.
Well, today I'm drinking instead. I don't have a clue which is less destructive. I'm not much of a drinker, but it takes the edge off. I s/i 4 times w/i the past week, after not for months. I fessed up to T, who wasn't happy. I'm worried she'll drop me. She asks about the s/i but not drinking.
I just want to hold off for a little longer. I don't want to go backwards. I don't want to cut, to burn. I'm just so sad.
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I know how it feels. Not being at the therapist, cause I've never had one. But to have people disappointed in you for relapsing over this. But one of the big things is, even though it sucks to do it, you admitted you have done it again. That takes a lot of strength that you probably dont award as you should.
What I do, is just take every day as it goes. Try to distract yourself as much as possible...even nap if you have to, because I know its something I do. If theres a day when I'm too depressed to do much, I just try and nap so I dont feel the urge to s/i again. Try to recognize every little good thing as it is, and try basing your day on those little things. Theyre what matter most. :]
Hope I helped, even a little
