Crew --> I'm not happy about having DID. I never have been. I don't like that I suddenly find myself somewhere and don't have any idea how I got there or where I was or what I was wearing. I don't like suddenly realizing that I'm with someone that I really shouldn't be with or doing something (cutting, drugs, etc) that I really shouldn't be doing. But I don't absolutely hate it either. I like thinking that no matter how many friends or family members forsake me, I will always have "people" looking out for me. I like being able to express strong emotions, like anger and sadness, that I (as Sam, as the host) wouldn't be able to show. I like having different talents depending on who's out. I like that some of my alters are more social, or that each appeals to a certain type of person. I am profoundly relieved to know that I'm not alone in my experiences. I realize that without my alters, I'd have gone insane, or worse. Best of all, I can see that there is a future--for me, for living without DID, or for living without it controlling me. And, now that I know, I can finally get the people inside to stop fighting to get out; and we're all...kinda working together. For the betterment of ALL of us. As a team.
Hope that helps.