I can totally relate to everyone here. My oldest brother and sister died before I was old enough to even remember them. I saw a picture of them and only wonder what they would be like today. I can't help but cry when I type this because I believe if they were alive today they would have rescued me from all the pain I endured. But I do know however they are in a better place, since they were conjoined twins at the heart and when one passed the other did aswell. Sorry you are hurting too.