hi kimmy......so sorry about your loss and the sorrow you are feeling......and believe me.i understand what you are trying to say and you have said it well.....i feel much the same way you do .....i lost my dad many years ago and i still miss him everyday....we miss it all.......what we had, what we wish we had had, what we didn't have and what we never will have....the bond between a father and daughter is so special......i wish that i could tell you that it will get easier...i think that it changes...from a stabbing pain to a dull ache that never goes away.and in some crazy way....i don't think we would ever want it to......