I got to see my T today at a totally different time. Usually I see her at 7pm but this week I am off work (hooray!) with no visitors (HOORAY!!) and was free to choose a different time.
So I saw her at 10am. It was fun. I was much much much less resistant and it was a good session. And I remember much more of it.
She has asked before "What are you feeling right now" and the question makes my mind go blank every time. (Gasp!! What?! Nothing!!!)
This time she asked me "What are you aware of right now?" and it didn't feel threatening or intrusive, it felt connecting and okay. After a slight hesitation, I was able to say.

We also talked about a fantasy. I haven't given any details about any fantasies for a long time, but today it was okay. Embrassing and anxiety-provoking for sure, but still okay. At one point she said lightly "We're just talking about fantasy"... and I went on but came back to that. lol I said it was easy for HER to say that!! We both laughed and she thanked me for letting her know how that sounded and that she meant it to sound comforting and reassuring because she knew it was not easy for me.

Anyway, it was just so interesting to go to therapy at a completely different time of day. I loved it and wish I could see her at that time more often, but I will only be able to do that when I'm off work.