I think I sort of know what you mean, the negative thoughts. Yeah, that sucks. Let me know when you figure out what to do about 'em. I guess it is a process though, take things one day at a time. And I agree not to sink your boat before it floats. Even when you start having those negative thoughts, a part of you is recognizing them and being a little more rational. Hang on to that. When you start to think them, try to have that other more rational side say, hey! stop making a catastrophe out of what is. nothing bad is going to happen you know. i don't know if that helped at all, probably didn't, lol, sorry. but anyways, I kinda know what you mean.