((((mini moo))))

Thank you for reaching out and posting. I am hearing you and I am listening. I do know what you are feeling and I am sorry you are feeling so bad.

I validate what you are saying, I really do. But it is not true. You are worth it and so much more. Inside I hear to just let go and let it all end. But I know that it is not really what I want.

We have fought too long to allow anything to happen. If I give in then I am allowing those that would rather I listened to win. They are not worth it.

I know the feeling of so many things going on right now and I understand the feelings of losing your mind. Sometimes it would be easier to lose my mind, but then what have I done? Fighting to reach one more minute or second is all that counts.

If we can make it one more second, then one more second, so forth and so on.........then those seconds become minutes, which become hours, which become days. And before we know it we have pushed through the pain and the negative and reached another step upwards.

I know the feeling of being an honor student and then not feeling like you are reaching that potential. I had to step back this last term and take time to get myself back to a place health wise that I will be able to do what I know I can do.

I have to step back yet again, as I am having surgery in January, and will be down for awhile. So I am now having to wait until Spring to go back. But it is okay if you need to take a break to find yourself again and then go back.

Why do we do that? Act like nothings bothering us when it is? I hear you and I am sorry this happens to you. But I do believe that depression plays a big part in feeling that way. Depression so many times grabs us and we do not even know it has us until it is too late.

But please know that we are listening and we are here for you. You are not alone. Please keep posting and reaching out. We do care. Sending you gentle hugs and loving thoughts.

dps