I really need some help. IDK if this is a form of OCD or not but here it goes. I cant stop lying and its tearing my home apart. I had a very lonely childhood being the smart fat girl in a small private school and kids can be cruel. But Im not here to play the poor me card I have learned from that experience and moved on with my life. The only reason why I even brought it up is that when no one payed attention to me I lied and overexaggerated everything even small non important things. People would finally pay attention to me and it snowballed. I have been living in a lie since I was 8 yrs old. I have tried to stop time and time again thinking before i say anything. Not drinking (which only makes it way worse). Not being around anyone so I wouldn't lie cause there would be no one to impress. But I hate my life and what's its become. I don't know how to stop. And now the only man in my life for the past 5 years says he cant trust me and I have this "inherent flaw" that is driving us apart. Is it an inherent flaw...I don't think so. I know it's not. But I can't seem to stop lying. It is not necessary to try to impress him but I feel like if I don't have anything interesting to say he will leave. Help please. I don't know how to make it stop because that is the only way I can save this. I know I have a problem I can finally see that after all these years but I don't know how to stop.