thank you everyone. yes manda I loved her very very much. she was like my own babygirl. I have only 3 months of memories of her but I cherish each one. I use to sneak into my daughter's room in the mornings and get her out of the bassinet and take her down stairs and sing to her. hehe she loved it and so did I! I have a step neice that is a few months younger and both had the olive skin and dark hair. very hard for me to be around her! but I love her.