as much as it hurts me to not be with her when I'm feeling what I was earlier, I love that I can look back on this experience (I NEVER cry in T) with a sort of comfort that can't be provided with by hugs. As wonderful as it would be to receive a hug, I think that in a way, this might be a little better in the long run, as it gives me something to look back and reflect on and think "wow, my T was so compassionate in that moment."