I am having a really bad time right now and I am desperately wishing for attention, but I am not one that can just say "hey, I need your attention right now". My pdoc finally called today and has called in a new med for me; navane 2mg 2xdaily. Anyway, I just don't know. I feel so freaking tortured right now. Maybe I don't need an antipsychotic, maybe I'm not being clear when I try to describe my feelings? But how do you describe this **** in a comprehensible manner? I feel like I need to call him back, but I have only called him 2 times in these past 4 years, so I don't feel comfortable calling. What is wrong with me? Why can I not just feel ok? Why does no one respond to me when I post? And I'm not saying that out of an attempt to get a bunch of people to say sorry...its just part of the overall worthless feeling. Am I just not interesting enough to respond to? Now I am crying and I don't know what to do. I hate this.