Getting Help is going to be a very hard step. For the first time (After 4 years) I stepped out of my comfort zone and it is hard as H***. I am still working on stepping out. My first appointment is on Friday. The reason I am telling you this is because depression can escalate. It may start of as just feeling low but that can lead to Self Injury and Suicide. I am not saying that you are going to end up in that situation.
You can always contact me or add me as a friend. I would love to try to support you and help in any way that I could. Just private message me, IM me, Aim me, or skype me. I wish you well and send my friendship.