Hello Everyone...
I really think I am loosing my mind. My husband lives in LA. We feel in love 2 years ago and he promised he was going to find a job in Miami ( where I live )...then this entire economy issues happened and even though we both been trying, jobs are really hard to find.

As you can imagine, he has his family there, which they dislike the idea he married me and refused to meet me. We worked through it, but everytime something happens, like his father's death...I was not able to attend his funeral only because I was going to upset his children..( mind you they are already married ) and I was going to upset his mother...this was the reason why I was not able to attend. Many of these things happened and for two years, I have not been able to visit him in LA.

HOwever, everytime something like this happens, he tells me he was wrong and promise never to shut me out again...and ofcourse everytime he tells me this... I believe him.

WE planned to have our first Christmas together in Miami. Unfortunately, his cousin died in a motorcycle accident and his mom got depressed along with high blood pressure...She is 87. He told me he couldnt come to Miami because he was worried about his mother and I couldnt go to LA to spend Christmas with him because it was going to upset her.

Again, I am thrown under the bus...and yet he still manages to get emotional with me that he doesnt understand why he cant make me happy...but when he is faced with a decision between me or his mother or family...I am the one pushed aside.

I am only good in MIami. I am only his wife when he wants me to be and then disconnects me when he needs to. I know this is not fair and I am stupid to continue to accept it...It is sad to say that I love him, but I cant do this anymore..

Anyone out there have words of courage for me???
Desperately seeking hope...

Rare