Randall,

Yes I am studying for a degree in psychology. Therapists are supposed to control their reactions and not appear shocked and disgusted at things that the client says, as that kind of reaction can be detrimental and disrupts what the client needs to talk about, probably sending them the message that those topics aren't acceptable. I'm learning so much now about what my prior therapists did wrong! The thing I was talking about with discussing a suicide attempt while smiling has bugged me for a long time. I didn't know it at the time, but it wasn't an actual suicide attempt. I cut my wrists, and was thinking about suicide, but didn't cut deep enough to even really bleed. (this was like 14 years ago) My therapist at the time didn't react at all when I told him. I don't think he said anything right then and I didin't think he even heard me, but weeks later he tossed that observation back at me like he was mad at me or tired of me or something. I never did like him and just never saw him again after that last visit. But I know the smile that he was talking about. It's not a normal smile, and now at least I am aware when I am doing it and I think my teacher is right about it being related to nervousness.

Thanks for your comments.

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