Thank you both so much.
He emailed me again today.. asking how I was blah blah... I let it rip again.. Felt good.
In the end I have told him to ease back, that I can't talk to him, that it hurts etc... He doesn't want to he says but will if that's what I 'really' want...
Not it not what I want but it has to be this way.

Feeling in a good place right now!

John, if you don't mind me asking, did it work out in the end? Were you able to move on and did you try to stay friends?

Once again, Thank you both so much, it means the world to me!