From the moment I read your message, I knew you were young. Sweety, why are you waiting for someone for 4 years? You situation is not a real healthy one.

The only think I can tell you is you need to move on. You are holding a dream in your head and the boy you met 4 years ago may not be the same now. If someone likes you or better yet...tells you they want to marry you...why wont they call you???????? or come and visit you often, propose....etc......

Keep asking yourself these questions and you alone will come up with the right answer for you. Its hard to let go of someone you love.....I know

Good luck,
Rare