hi april and welcome to the forums.....and yes you have taken the first and most important step by seeking help.....sometimes our partners and people in our lives just don't understand....its not abandonment.its just not understanding.....when you get a better grip on what is going on with you with the help of a professiona, then maybe you and your partner can sit down and discuss this..keep us informed...you've come to a good place..people here care and understand.....