((((((Dani))))))
I can relate to everything you're saying, the needing to talk, and not being able to, the feeling like you're wasting T's time, the wanting and needing to be there w/T but being afraid, all of that.
I'm glad you decided to call back to reschedule, and SO SORRY they were closed for the weather! DOH! Please call back again today, hopefully they will be open again by now?
Meanwhile, keep coming here and talking, we really do understand. We will walk through this with you.