...what makes it difficult about a month after meeting him I had an accident that left me disabled so my life changed all around and can't go back to things I did before ....so in that I have to also blame myself for ultimately building my world around him he was all I had ...so when he left ...my world crumbled...

Hey Kacey, I quoted this part of your post because I am disabled and have very few friends or family. You have managed without this man for quite a while. It may have been difficult, but you were doing life without him. As someone who knows how easy it is to become dependant on one person, I have to ask, why would you grab back on to something that surely sounds as though it will cause more heartache and further dependance? He has moved on with another girlfriend. Do you really want this relationship because you love him or is because it feels safe. Someone to do life with. Think on it. You may not believe this now, but you obviously can live life without him.......difficult life. Just give this some thought. I sympathize and wish the best of outcomes for you!