least I used to be a lot more confident. I used to be able to stand on a stage and sing and dance and act. I could speak my mind just about anywhere and I wasn't ashamed of it if my ideas differed from everyone else's. I had a wide circle of friends and I was convinced that I could do anything I set my mind to. Now that's all gone and I can't figure out why. I can't figure out why I CARE so much what other people think. I didn't used to. I wish I could go back to the way I was before I got so screwed up. [/quote]

Those traits, abilities aren't lost or gone....they are simply walled off . All this means is you do have confidence! You simply need to , one baby step at a time, find it again. I believe you can. I beleive you will. Start by saying "i am a confident person". keep saying it til you begin to believe. Good luck and blessings!