Stephiifaye, I believe that you are deeply invested in this relationship. All I want to add is to tread carefully. The old cliches are silly sounding, but there is wisdom to them and the one that comes to mind is" don't put all your eggs in one basket". I hope that everything turns out the way you imagine it will. But, time and life change things, so just go slow without too much expectations. No one person can make us happy. Hopefully , becoming a pair will be the source of your happiness. Good luck and bless!