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Originally Posted by MissE1088
WHY DOES EVERYTHING SEEM SO PAINFUL?!?! i know that life isn't suposed to feel like this.
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Thank you for sharing and I am sorry you feel this way. It’s understandable if you live a life with emotional pain, pain will be the feeling you have come to know and support.
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Originally Posted by MissE1088
i cannot control everything that my mind is going to put me through, and i cant control everything, i cant always be optomistic, and want to help myself. Sometimes, I don't want to help myself.
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It’s understandable not to have the will or strength to help yourself clean up or walk to the store for toilet tissue. But, this may not be your mind bringing these painful feelings and now a painful lifestyle onto you.
Sure, you cannot control everything, even stuff that occurs to you in your life, yet you can find that inner strength needed to help yourself find professional help and mutual support that can assist your autonomy in getting healthier one day at a time.
There is no quick and easy fix here, although, by taking a shower, ironing your clothes, brushing your teeth, and after making an appointment, actually stepping in that door and talking with a qualified mental health professional can greatly help your cause in controlling this painful lifestyle and emotional imprisonment.
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Originally Posted by MissE1088
I DONT WANT TO FEEL LIKE THIS ANYMORE. JUST MAKE IT GO AWAY.
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Unfortunately feelings like this just don’t go away over night. It will take a commitment on your part to seek help then follow up on a regular basic. Possibly be open to psychotropic meds as well. Importantly, given this is your life, you also must continue to do your part in getting healthier. Actually, researching this site and then reaching out to others for support / advice / what have you – shows you are contemplating- changing how you feel. Don’t give up; you can change how you feel. [/quote]
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Originally Posted by MissE1088
I CHOOSE GET BETTER!! but why is it sooo hard?!? im trying day in and day out i dont know what to do anymore, my mind WILL NOT let me get better
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Continue to try each day. Identify why it is so hard, even if that brings you added pain. At least you are helping yourself by finding different triggers / cues that are emotionally weighing you down from healthier change. Changes occur slowly for every person, but never doubt it can occur in you on a regular basic.
Once again, putting the blame on your mind isn’t the answer. In fact, don’t place blame on any part of who you are to hold responsible in how you feel. Pain is pain regardless and it can get lessen every day, even if it doesn’t initially.
We are here if you continue to be.