Turquoisesea..... I know what you mean but, I feel like a loser at times. Losers are just a stereo type (the dont matter because they mean different things to different groups of people). You do not have a negative charge. your charge is neutral and people will still be drawn to you. I am here if you need me. You can contact me. I will listen and try to help. I don't like how you are feeling, but keep fighting. You may feel like you are in jail but atleast you have long visiting hours.