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Dec 11, 2009, 01:15 AM
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Member Since: Jun 2008
Location: WYLTK
Posts: 768
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i don't like xmas time for two reasons: people ask alot of frickin' questions and it marks when i moved back home. so right now, i'm pretty down on my self cuz it's been two years now. part of me feels like i've wasted two years of my life. but yesterday, i thought of it differently.
for two years, i've helped my uncle work on finishing the inside of his house and i've spent alot of time with my grandma, who turned 89 last month. i've built things for her, fixed things, and driven her places, things i guess wouldn't have gotten done had i not been around here. and my uncle, he deserves my help and so much more. he's a recovering alcoholic, so he actually knows what it is like to struggle like this.
it's hard to know where to go with the thoughts. i mean, when i look at my life, i've really done nothing with it in the past few years. at the same time, i know i've helped people out. but it all comes down to that one question: what are you doing with your life? sometimes, i wish i had the balls to say, when it's your business i'll let you know! haha, like that would ever happen but would be funny as heck. now that sounds like something my uncle would say - lol!!! anyways, my parents try asking me what i plan on doing in six months or next year. all i can manage to say right now is: how should i know, i can't even tell you what i'm doing next week... 
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