Good Evening/morning Patricia and Toni it may seem I have been doing life without him . In truth I believe I am just broken ,truly broken as people have put it.arely doing life nothing like any halfway normalerson would.I sleep constantly days,up all night,my house has been in disarray and gotten worse and worse ....I know sick.crazy over my love for him and still feeling regardless of him having someone he feels it deep down too ...I believe he may actually be having problems with her now maybe breaking up ...you may think that I'd be hopeful yet it scares me to death because I think even if he said the words I have been wishing to hear ...I don't think he would like the person I have become the insecure scared,sleepless,broken woman that he ended silently creating ......I am also Broke financially on the verge of losing my home I have had for 20 years ,visiting food pantries etc...we have no Christmas tree,neither did we last year .......

I did meet someone recently who is a wonderful man but can feelyself pushing him away ........WAITING for tha OTHER SHOE TO DROP and also not sure if I am ready ....